To find meaning and happy ending
Meaning is to intend for a particular purpose, or a destination. I usually define where you'll end up in life because meaning is only found where you already arrive in it. I was inspired by these word this morning, when the president of our school gave her speech. As you see, I am attending a catholic school, so our president is a nun. And as she said these phrase:
At age of 24, I have decided to gave more meaning in my life..
I remember my Mom. As I little kid, I grew up without a Dad.. I was born out of wedlock, and I am sure you already getting the picture. As I grew up, I really envy other kids at the mall, they are a complete family. Mom, Dad, and their kids. I feel really happy watching them.. They are so happy together, I was 8 years old at that time, and I feel sorry for my Mom. I wish she have someone by her side to carry our groceries. I wish she have someone by her side to make her smile like the other Mom's I always see with their husbands. Then at times, I wish I have a Dad to carry me in his arms. And then there are really those sad times that I wish my Mom just gave birth to a mighty boy and not a helpless girl like me. So if I am a guy when I grew up, I can be strong and I can protect her.
My story you see can be too far to relate on what our school president said in her phrase,
but I think it is perfectly related to one another.
I remember what I wrote to my Mom last March for her birthday. My Mom didn't have her wedding, She didn't get the chance to wear a wedding gown, which every woman's dream of having. When i was a child, and when I go to play on my cousin's house, I would always stare at their parents wedding picture on display. I thought my Mom can't have her happy ending, and will didn't have one anymore and I'm so sad about that. So, I wrote this to my Mom, without holding back anything.. And I said to her, she will always be the most beautiful woman for me, even though she don't have a wedding picture dressed in elegant white. And that I will stay by her side, for better and for worse until our last breath. Later on did I realize, I am my Mom's happy ending.
I think, happy ending is not just about finding someone to marry. Happy ending is founded if you'll see your life's meaning.
My heart is restless, until it rest on you Oh Lord.
-St. Augustine
